Women are f'd up

This is a nice one..

A buddy of mine, pretty good friend mind you, well him and his gf of quite a while broke up. No big deal, I mean it happens to everyone. When me and him met and became friends he was with this girl, meaning I have known her just as long as he, and get along rather well with her as well as I do him.

Now then, letting that soak in here you have it..

I went to go tan a few weeks back. Oh, probably 4 weeks back if memory serves. I got out and walked out front an sat down with my bottle of water an im bullshittin' with one of my friends who works there. In walks my buddie's ex gf. We talk for a few seconds, nothing major just the typical mindless chatter of "how ya been, havent seen you in a while, whatcha been into" you know, that kind of stuff. She ask's if I am going to tan and I tell ehr that I had just got out and was just sitting there talking. She says ok, well I guess I might see you when I get out then.

So far nothing really out of the ordinary, just the typical bs you say to ppl. I continue in on the conversation which I was having with my friend and we go on as we were before the girl had arrived.

Anyhow roughly 20min goes by and she is done tanning. Out she walks and sits down an talks to me for a few minutes. She says we should do lunch some time bla bla an im like yea whatever just get ahold of me. I didnt want to be rude and say "are you fucking kidding me? I am not going to lunch w/you". Besides that I figure it was just one of those casual things you say to someone even tho you infact do not want to go to lunch with them.

She leaves the joint, as do I. I go home and do the usual.. which is more than likely either play Wii or watch tv. Anyhow it's buisness as usual in the abode.. and I go to bed.

The next day I get up and take a shower, when I get out I have a txt msg. It's her an she want's to know if I am up for lunch. Weird, but perhaps her intentions are really honest and just wants someone to talk to. I inform her that I am heading to the mall, and she could make an appearance if she wanted to.

No biggie, mall bound I go

So I am perusing Hollister looking for jeans which is a mother fucker to find by the way.. and she strolls in. I go in just about every store in the mall.. twice.. and she is making fun of me because I am worse than a girl. Anyhow she talks about her ex, asks me the usual things women ask trying to get info on what he is doing out of me..

This is what I expected! I am now free and clear, I now know 110% that she is not interested in me, thank god. the last thing I want or need is my buddy of a few years mad at me because his ex name dropped or asks him if he cares if she see's me or some stupid shit like that..

Anyhow, the next day rolls around an she call's a few times. now it's getting weird. She explains to me how she would like to go to a movie.. I quickly say eh well, I dont think it's a good diea, besides I have seen everything playing. She now exlpains that is ok, she wasent really interested in watching the movie anyhow..

Ok, now im disturbed. She obviously does not care about the fact her ex and I are friends, or the fact that I have a gf. I however do care about all of this..

I kind of make a joke about it, blowing her off.. then just stopped answering when she would call. If you know me, you know that I rarely ever answer my phone anyhow so I guess this may not work, but it has so far. The calls and txt's have seemed to stop, so I guess all is well on my end.




^ Ok, are you with me so far? Good.


This is a girl with obvious mental issues.
My first problem with this situation is anyone who is that ate up with me right off the bat has got to be completely fucking stupid. However it has happened before.. *shrug*

In a nutshell I am a;

1. complete dickhead with no regard to the feelings or concerns of those around me

2. somewhat self centered prick who is not concerned with yuor well being

3. cocky basterd who thinks it is ok for himself to be cocky but hates others who are

4. incapable of having a conversation with you unless I find it interesting

5. unable to remember anything or pay attention to anything unless I find it interesting



Im sure there is alot more, but let's just go with the 5 I have listed, shall we?

All 5 of those statements are completely true, ask anyone who I am not technically "friends" with who know me, and they will tell you pretty much what I just listed, perhaps even a bit worse.

When I dont know someone, or perticularly care about them, I really dont give a fuck. I find no reason to care about them or what they have to say because I view it as a plain waste of my time. If I dont know you, and you die tomorrow, it doesnt effect me one single bit. Just as if I died I dont expect it to effect you one bit. You cant go on about your life caring about every single thing or you will eventually lose your fucking mind.

Now I ask you,
Taking into consideration those 5 things in which I described myself, do I really sound like someone who you would want to date? Yes, I agree dating me is completely different but the me you meet and the me who you date are two different people. You have to get past the me you meet first. An why in the fuck would any girl find that appealing?

I guess it comes down to the whole (You allways want what you cant have) ordeal, as well as a little bit of the fact that girls like guys with confidence. I guess somehow my being a cock sucker is viewed by them as confidence thus rendering my actions and ego problem as a front as you will for what they believe is a strong person.. I dono, makes no sense to me.

This would prob be a good time for me to post one of those pages from my book which has my theory on how women work.. but I have been trying to refrain from posting any book chapters. I may break that rule in the next few weeks tho.


Anyhow it's a bit after 1am so I am going to bounce.
Til next time.. ..yea, you know the drill